‘Love and Exorcism’ by Onyinyechi Okorie

Desert Cactus Heart
Kelly DuMar

Love and Exorcism

a new day    a new word to hide this sadness   seen what my life keeps turning into without the fireworks and the evenings and your smiles sent forth from eden?  you used to say   Sunlight      Joy     Mine   i need you like i will fade out     i said   be this song on the radio   i have loved you like our bodies commanded      where’s the wrong    your exorcist picked on wrong        showed you how a songbird can be pricked open in the palms of love   so you said you were leaving   & i begged for Mercy     so you laced my hair with my mother’s rosary      & i held on        the way my mother taught me   if a boy breaks you  / if the wind curses you /    nobody said anything of a girl      because      to cancel a thing’s existence         begin by refusing it a place in language

you wanted me to be subtle in saying i choked in your mouth     so i became a poet      in the first poem    you haven’t left    christmas hasn’t stopped being christmas   we haven’t stopped babysitting  sunset on your pavement 

in a different poem   i returned   washed out   wounded Achilles   to my mother   i did not mention your name    i said a neighbour’s dog returned with legs broken   i said it broke me        my mother said                      Prayers


Onyinyechi Okorie is a Nigerian poet, editor and freelancer. She studies English and Literature at the University of Nigeria Nsukka, and tweets @onyii_amor.


Kelly DuMar is a poet, playwright and workshop facilitator from Boston. She’s author of three poetry chapbooks, girl in tree bark (Nixes Mate, 2019), Tree of the Apple, (Two of Cups Press), and All These Cures, (Lit House Press). Her poems, prose and photos are published in many literary journals including Bellevue Literary Review, Tupelo Quarterly, Crab Fat, Storm Cellar, Corium & Tiferet, and frequently in Feral. Kelly serves on the Board of the International Women’s Writing Guild (IWWG), and produces the Bi-Monthly Open Mic Writer Series attended by women worldwide. She blogs her daily nature photos & creative writing at kellydumar.com/blog.